How many pasts exist that we are unaware of because they weren’t recorded on tablets or papyrus in a language we can comprehend?
How many pasts do we fail to acknowledge because they didn’t leave behind what we recognize as fossils, pasts that we can’t perceive because we no longer recognize complex messages in plain sight?
Petroglyphs that we claim to understand as mystical spiritual writing are probably graffiti—ancients thumbing their noses at us, those ignorant future people. So-called primitives rolling on the floor laughing in disbelief at premonitions of people dumb enough to damage their own planet.
How much do we truly know about what we don’t know?
How many messages have we misidentified and mislabeled as “primitive” or “savage”?
Is it us, through our close-mindedness, who are primitive and are becoming savages?
If we pay close attention, can we rediscover the mystical and regain the ability to see the extraordinary in the ordinary?
The mechanic, electrician, carpenter, fireman, policeman, and soldier genes are all totally recessive in me; therefore, I became a nurse, teacher, and poet.
I’m not your stereotypical all-American man.
Lacking the talent of a handyman, rather than swinging a hammer, I pencil lavish iniquities. Instead of twisting a screwdriver, my mind is constantly twisting ideas into knots and words into indiscretions.
Instead of putting out fires, I like to ignite them. Instead of shooting machine guns, I want to decorate them. Instead of handcuffing criminals, I tie up my girlfriend or let her handcuff me.
My singing voice sounds like a cheap can of dog food, smooth as chunky peanut butter, so I read and recite to prevent injury to sensitive eardrums.
Rather than meekly submitting to my deformities, I choose to turn the tables on them through paradoxes, make art of them by crafting linguistic puzzles, and exploit them with colorful conundrums. I poke fun at my imperfections by scribbling riddles and rhymes peppered with irony.
My writing can be kind of cheesy, sort of dumb, usually audacious, falling decisively on the far side of reason.
When I read in public, it’s not unusual to hear a stifled cough, snorts, or sniggers, to see eyes rolling like marbles on a warped floorboard, and, occasionally, to experience applause which, I suspect, is motivated more by relief than admiration.
I’m not your stereotypical all-American man I’m a Murse.
My friend John (RIP), an army flight nurse, would refer to himself and other masculine nurses as “Murses”. The image is a cartoon by my friend and colleague, Jim Gamble (RIP), another Murse.
Any time, day or night in Las Vegas, for forty dollars and eighty-nine cents, I can purchase a carton of Timeless Time cigarettes.
There is a violence, a compressed ambient violence, to the creeping of minutes, the marching of hours, the racing of years.
Trauma stops time, attained rhythm collapses.
For survivors, time starts over, it resets. What came before becomes separate. Time commences with the disaster. What came before becomes irrecoverable.
Cut off by catastrophe, time begins with that traumatic moment, and proceeds into what?
We don’t know.
The once-promised future now becomes the past, cycles are broken, rhythms destroyed. Time proceeds into the unknown, like a rock tossed into the abyss. Time becomes a wound.
Catastrophe is eternal. Life changes, no longer cyclic, seasonal, but segmented, the present adrift in the void, disappearing into the dead past.
Or is the past alive? In an infinite line of present moments in a long, brightly lit hallway with a single door at the end.
A hall decorated with pasts calling out, pasts demanding redress, pasts existing in the present as demands, shouting, pulsating, guiding us toward damnation or redemption.
I don’t believe in god, but I believe that god believes in me.
Oh hairless apes, do you realize that your ethereal spirits are casually speeding through empty places?
Gaze up at that majestical roof fretted with golden fire. In the seventh house, Luna smiles, Demons and sprites gleefully orbit Jupiter and Mars and Earth says “hello”.
Pedigreed unicorns, deities, minds empty as a vacuum, are tripping in outer space.
Through open eyes, clear as polished glass, they observe nothing, they see every thing.
In the house of rising sons, rainbow children dream of bodies walking in space. and souls swimming in Love.