We’re running out of time. We’re all running out of time. This moment, a grain of time, has already fallen through the hourglass by the time you read this line.
So why are you waiting—
to begin a business, a book, a poem, to say “hello”?
Why wait—
to travel, to play the trumpet, to call a friend?
Why wait—
to paint, to hike, to say I’m sorry— or I love you?
Alone in the gray of the winter after my son died,
I was irritated and jealous of the people who still had children who still celebrate holidays.
It wasn't fair.
Jingle bells on the radio and in every elevator, friends and family laughing, the well-wishes, the tinseled tree, wrapped and ribboned gifts were too much to bear. Trying to smile—while inside, all I could do was cry.
Like the Grinch, I wanted to steal their joy and make them suffer.
In Whoville they say the Grinch’s heart grew three sizes and he gave back the gifts and food that he had selfishly hoarded.
Now, when I see you, speak to you, or even just have a thought about you,
my heart grows, and when it isn’t so tight, I want to spread the kindness and love I hoarded.
Now I want to celebrate and share in the feast, I also want to help you carve the roast beast.
Not for the faint of heart— these savage places accessible only by wrong turns and scraped knees.
Enchanted grottos and obscure oases exist only for the driven, the focused—persisting beyond the point of annoyance until others label them ‘hard’ and ‘holy’.
There are two ways to die in the desert: too little water and too much.
Too little— Dehydration: head throbbing, tongue cracking, confusion— seizures, coma, death.
Too much— Flash floods: semi-liquid mass made of mud, uprooted trees, skull-sized rocks and couch-sized boulders barreling downstream— a locomotive without brakes.
The roar of a hundred lions announces the explosive debris flow, a ten-foot slurry— anything in its path: sand, trees, boots, backpacks— launched downstream.
A dry creek bed converts to rapids, churning like a jeweler’s tumbler.
In the aftermath, boulders set in the mudflow become unmarked headstones for the unfortunate creatures caught in the flow.
Water in the desert, whether abundant or scarce, will leave behind a graveyard.